Hello 1993

Music not grunge

What if I can give advice to that teenager in the 1990s? Does she have something to remind me of over 30 years later?

Hello dear one,

Let me begin near the end here and say SLAVERY HAS NO POITIVE CONDITIONS. There are evils that supersede any possible positive outcome. Slavery, genocide, war…. Humans are adaptable, and we also strive to make life easier (and more beautiful), but we must not unitize the lives of other people in an attempt to alleviate personal suffering.

You continue to have these think sessions for life. Eventually, some of these questions will be answered and the think sessions morph into meditation sessions. I’m excited to discover this entry from early 1993 wandering about life. Life is more complex, though, to categorize a good or bad view of life.

There is a difference between acceptance and resolution. You will learn a lot about acceptance in life. Acceptance is not always clear. I will “accept” (I thought) a little later in life being abused. I figured it was a deserving lot in my life. I resolved to the wrong “fact” thanks to low self-esteem and the gaslighting of another. I would eventually accept my worth and dignity as a human which allowed me to leave the negative situation.

Accepting what cannot be changed leads to a happier existence. If it can be changed, don’t accept it without knowing it will end.

I remember discovering the music of Queen before Freddie’s death when I was in middle school. My love for Queen continues although I’m not as obsessed with them as you are and will continue to be for quite some time. Happiness comes and goes, everything changes.

Anger rises then falls. You will become the mom asking for chores to be done. Your mom worked long hours on her feet all day in a customer service job. You will learn in a couple years the ofttimes thankless job of dealing with customers in a capitalist society. You will also learn it becomes more difficult with age.

Anger. While it doesn’t last, it never feels good when it is rising. I wish I could give you a solution to its not rising — I still become angry, however, I’m better able to sit with it instead of physically reacting…. most of the time.!

Oh, honey, I remember the anticipation. It will not pan out this time but some day many years later you will marvel over being in the same room as Brian May and cry tears of joy.